When the world looked at the face of Blessed Teresa
of Kolkata (Calcutta), it saw pure, simple joy. Then, in 2007, 10 years after Blessed
Teresa’s death, a collection of her private letters was published. Suddenly, the
joy that the tiny sister from Albania once radiated seemed anything but simple.
As the letters revealed, for the entirety of her public
ministry, the founder of the Missionaries of Charity endured unceasing feelings
of desolation and abandonment by God.
“I am told God lives in me,” she wrote in 1957, “and yet the
reality of darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches
my soul.”
For some, the letters became a source of scandal. But for those
familiar with the stages of spiritual growth, they served as a profound
testimony to Blessed Teresa’s sanctity. In those decades of desolation, she
lived what St. John of the Cross termed, the “dark night of the soul,” which was
the title of a poem he wrote.
The timing and duration of Mother Teresa’s dark night was
unusual — and markedly so. But the fact that she encountered a dark night
wasn’t. Every Christian, on their way to God, must pass through his or her own
dark night. So, what is (and isn’t) the dark night of the soul?
It is necessary
Every fallen human being has disordered desires and attachments.
We love what we shouldn’t love, or we love what we should but in the wrong way.
We seek our own comfort, our own pleasure, our own will. We value what we want
more than we value what God wants. We do wrong, even if only in our
hearts.
But we can’t do wrong and stand before God. We can’t even want
to do wrong and stand before God. A prerequisite for seeing God face to face is
that every attachment to sin, both in our lives and in our hearts, must be
broken. If we want to become saints, we have to desire only God’s will. And we
have to desire God’s will not out of fear of hell, but rather out of love for
heaven, out of love for God. Some of that breaking we do, as we learn to avoid
vice and pursue virtue. But some of that breaking only God can do. The dark
night of the soul is, in part, how he does that. By seemingly withdrawing all
spiritual consolations — all the little comforts and supports that typically
come from pursuing a relationship with him — and allowing an almost crushing
sense of abandonment to descend upon us, he purifies our desires and prepares us
for heaven.
It is unique
The dark night of the soul looks different in different lives.
Laypersons don’t necessarily experience the dark night the way religious do. Nor
do active religious necessarily experience the dark night the way contemplatives
do. Some people experience it primarily through external circumstances. They
find themselves persecuted or afflicted. In the midst of those afflictions, all
calls for help go unanswered. To the person passing through this type of dark
night, it feels like God has left them to deal with their cross on their own.
Others experience the dark night through temptations:
Temptations to pride, vanity, anger, sexual sin, and even unbelief assail them.
Then, there are those who experience the dark night of the soul mainly through
inner desolation: The gates of heaven seem barred against them, and no matter
how much they pray, no consolation seemingly comes. Lastly, there are those who
experience the dark night as a combination of all three: trials, temptations and
abandonment.
Likewise, for some, the dark night comes but once. For others,
it comes many times. Usually, it lasts for only a short while. Occasionally, it
lasts much longer. But when it finally ends, it ends for good. A definitive work
has been accomplished in the soul.
It is unpredictable
The dark night of the soul doesn’t come at the beginning of
one’s journey to God. Traditionally, spiritual directors identify three primary
stages (or ways) of growth in holiness. The first is the purgative way, where we
break habits of vice, acquire habits of virtue and learn to live a Catholic
life. The second is the illuminative way, where we grow in virtue, charity and
the life of prayer. And the third is the unitive way, where our wills and hearts
move in perfect harmony with God’s.
Near the end of the purgative stage, we experience a type of
dark night — a time of trial and affliction where it feels as if God no longer
loves us. This dark night, however, is not the dark night of the soul. Rather,
it’s the dark night of the senses.
In the dark night of the senses, God purifies us of our
attachments to the things of the world — physical comfort, physical pleasure,
material success, popular acclaim — as well as of our consolations in prayer.
Sorrows afflict us, and things that used to comfort us — food, sex, shopping,
compliments, even the liturgy — no longer do. Through this dark night, God
prepares us for the illuminative way and a deeper, more contemplative life of
prayer.
The dark night of the soul occurs at the end of the illuminative
way, as we prepare to enter the unitive way. During this dark night, God roots
out our deepest attachments to sin and self, and the desolation that accompanies
that rooting out is overwhelming and crushing. More than just a lack of
consolation, this dark night plunges a soul into an abyss of darkness and
nothingness, essentially revealing to us what we are without God and preparing
us to not only carry our crosses, but to love our crosses and carry them
joyfully in union with Christ.
It isn’t depression
From the outside, depression and the dark night of the soul bear
a striking resemblance to one another. And they’re not entirely separate things.
As St. John of the Cross noted long ago, depression (or as they called it in the
17th century, melancholia) can go hand in hand with a dark night, whether by
exacerbating it or resulting from it.
But while clinical depression is triggered by an objectively sad
event (losing a loved one, fatal illness, etc.) or by a biochemical problem, the
dark night of the soul is purely an act of God; it is God working in our souls
to draw us closer to him.
Likewise, while depression weighs down both body and soul,
eventually rendering those who suffer from it unable to go about the normal
business of their life, throughout the dark night, the spirit stays strong, and
those suffering through it can perform great works of charity and service. They
remain active and don’t experience the same temptations to total self-loathing
or suicide that those struggling with depression suffer, nor do they lose their
faith in the midst of the dark night. Belief remains.
It isn’t evil
The dark night of the soul is not an evil to be endured; it’s a
good for which we should be grateful. Of course, it doesn’t always seem that
way. The thought of plunging into a spiritual abyss and losing all the sweetness
in our relationship with God strikes few as appealing. But neither does surgery.
Having cancer removed from our bodies isn’t a fun process. Nevertheless, we
submit to the surgeon’s knife readily and quickly, knowing that the sooner we
have the surgery, the sooner we can live a healthy, full life.
What’s true on the natural level is true on the supernatural
level. If we want to become the people God made us to be and live the lives he
made us to live, we must let him excise sin and unhealthy attachments from our
souls. There’s no getting around it. Before we can enter heaven, it has to
happen. It can happen in this life or it can happen in the next — in purgatory.
But here is better. For the sooner we let God root out unhealthy attachments,
the sooner we can get on with the business of being saints.
And there’s no better business than that.